i should go to sleep but


It's almost midnight, well ok, not quite yet but I have work tomorrow & my sleep schedule has been all over the place already but whatever. I'm having a lot of fun with this. Idk if I'll keep every single post I make in these early stages, we'll see. For now tho, I'm excited to finish up my clutter cabinet which means I can do fun pages and also have a whole page on my cats while also blogging about them. Michael is sleeping with me and Luna tonight. I wanted to let Luna sleep alone with me, her fav, but little Mikey wanted so bad to stay with us. Couldn't say no. That's always the hard part with him. He's my youngest, only has one ear. You can find a pic of him on my about page in the cat cheat sheet. Have fun with that treasure hunt lads. I'm getting offered a position at my shit job that would mean more money and more hours. But I'm actively trying to leave this retail thing b/c I can't do it. I need more stability in like a 9-5 or something like that. Ideally I'd have already become famous on youtube or something but i think my past & who I am as a person prevents me from truly being the Artist i think I am. Not to get personal on main. I'm watching Hilda in the background. I love Hilda. I wish that show had lasted a little longer. I love how kids shows have been progressing, tho as always I WISH that animation was generally taken more seriously b/c things are so cool. LOVE ANIMATION. One of my most prized possessions is a print signed by Hamish Steele of the Paranormal Park characters. I cheaped out and didn't get a certification of authenticity (sp?) but listen, it's not like I intend for that print to ever leave my hands. I'll be buried with it. Do you, the unknowing and nonexistent void, think that being into kids shows/animation can be a special interest? I mean, it can be and I'm sure is, but is it for me? I guess so. but also sometimes I wonder what is and isn't a special interest. Where is the line? I know as a kid I got so into ancient egypt that I learned hieroglyphics well enough to sort of read them and explain what they said to my uncle when we went to a museum together when I was in elementary school. Self taught. What's that? Says the guy who should be saying this to his therapist and not online even this weird online. WHAT IS GOING ON IN YOUR HEAD BROTHER? Whatever. Did you know that you can use any pronouns for me? Secretly i sometimes use fey/fair/fem and... if I'm feeling really wild. It/its. What can I say. I'm a man but what does that really mean? If anyone reads this post, and feel the need to say anything back to me, get into my inbox on tumblr. You should already know where that is b/c how else did you find this but just in case... gays4vulo@tumblr.com Just type that in, i'm too lazy right now to link it. I might learn coding. Who knows. How the hell do people find jobs they can manage? I'm learning. Anyhoo. Thanks for reading. I hope I keep this up. Luna is curled up so sweetly next to me, purring a little. Michael is sprawled out in the corner, his paw covering his nose just ever so slightly. My dad in the hall made a noise, disturbing Luna and she just looked up. Luna is around 13, tho probs at this point it's 14 years old. She's a little lady. My parents kind of abused her as a kitten, resulting in her having litter issues to this day (yeah she shits outside the litter box, right next to it. tho she's made progress on sometimes pooping in it now). It's sad. but now she's thriving. I've honestly never seen her happier, which gives me much joy. I'm glad to be able to give her the twilight years she deserves, tho to be clear when she was about hmm... maybe 8 years old? I did take over her care. When her sister, Raven (my cat), passed when she was 7 in 2017 there was a brief moment when Luna was "still my sister's cat" a statement idk if I can get into online ever lol just cos its way personal, but anyways, at least fully by the time she was 8, Luna became my cat. Now at 14 she's truly so happy. Close to 11:30 now, so I better stop. I look forward to this. I love journaling (tho these days I'm rather spotty) but I do love pretending to have an auidence so we'll see what happens for now I will continue to annoy the hell out of myself by thinking about webbed sites.